The Secular Life

So I'm sitting here at college and I'm contemplating on my old life.

Surrounding me are my friends, my non-xian friends. And I'm beginning to think. What would my life be like if I hadn't have come to know God? It isn't worth thinking about! It's a horrible thought, one I'm not comfortable imagining. I'm not even sure if I would be alive. I was in such a bad place when God saved me that nothing about my future was certain.

I look at my friends and my heart longs for them to know the God I know. The caring, protective, loving but also authoritive God. My Saviour and Father. The life they are leading is one that is turning them all into bitter people. Their souls are being deminished by arguments, rumours, gossip. A life of sin is all they know - it's time they came to know the REAL Jesus!

The life I am leading now needs to be on that will glorify God and spread His love and word to the world. I need to be the light that shines through so my friends can see how good and amazing God is.

All this scares me a bit. And that is why I am putting it on here. Here I can feel scared but ok about being scared. Being scared itself is not as scary when I am typing all of this. The prospect of knowing that God can and will use me to spread His light is a daunghting one, but it is one I am willing to take.

This post has become a different topic to when I started writing it a few days ago... since I started typing I've travelled up north and back down east, I've had deep conversations with my mum and God has made alot of things clear.

All I know is that God is good, God is who we all need to strive to be and God is the only one who can bring people to Him. I'm just the messenger...