You can't break a broken heart...

I don't really know what is going on with me today. I am better than I was but I'm still broken, lost, confused and a little bit numb.

I had a good chat with David monday night. We were babysitting Joseph and we had a good heart to heart about all the shit going on atm. Things made sense for a while, but I also had more things to think about after monday.

Yesterday I took a "sick" day... to be fair my tutor was off ill anyway but thats not the point. I spent yesterday morning lying in bed watching rubbish on tv, trying to get the energy to get out of bed and get dressed... eventually I did and I then went out for a walk. Mainly to clear my head but also to get out of the house. Its extremly suffocating.

I thought things couldnt get any worse but they have... in one sense what has happened is a good thing but it also over complicates everything! There is a huge decision I now have to make... so I titled this 'You Can't Break A Broken Heart' but I don't know if thats true.

My heart is broken, being healed I hope but also being broken in many new ways...