S*** scared

On a sunday night the youth of DC3 meet. Every week someone different hosts the night, they speak or we watch a nooma or we do something interactive. It's my turn in a few weeks and I'm scared s***less.

God has given me a huge area to cover and has told me to use my past to get the message across. Most of this stuff I've never told anyone else, the only people who know are the 3 who have read my talk notes.

The closer we get to the sunday of my talk the more nervous I get and the more I want to change my talk... However God has given me this subject and He has a reason for me to speak the words I have written down.

I have alot of things to say that people will not want to hear or like. Things that I feel need to be said and heard by the youth of the church, and then by the leaders of the church. How can we change and move forward if we are not listening to God and are not responding to what He is telling us to do?

All I can do is say my piece, hope its stirs something in peoples hearts and let God do what He wants to do. Prayer would be appreciated by anyone who reads this, friends or strangers. I'm praying for God to give me the strength and courage to tell people my past, the parts I want to keep secret. I'm praying for protection from Satan and for the love of God to overflow within me and shine through the pain and heartache.