the world through my eyes

Recently I have been listening to Bon Jovi again. I first got into them in 2004 when the build up to Have A Nice Day was happening. That album got me through a very dark period in my life. It helped me see the light. And right now it is doing that again.

The past few months have not been good for me, I have had a lot of stuff happen and a lot of things to think about. I have been very low and my feeling of hope and my enthusiasm (sp?) for life has slowly disappeared.

Last night was a good night at church, God really got to me. I have to thank John for his word, and for his many questions at the end. They really made me think and they have helped me reach out to God and finally ask for help.

The few songs that have been helping to me the most are:
>Someday I'll Be Saturday Night (off Cross Road)
>Welcome To Wherever You Are (off Have A Nice Day)
>Who Says You Can't Go Home (off Have A Nice Day)
>Wildflower (off Have A Nice Day)
>Novocaine (off Have A Nice Day)
>Story Of My Life (off Have A Nice Day)
>Everybody's Broken (off Lost Highway)
>The Last Night (off Lost Highway)
and > One Step Closer (off Lost Highway)

There are many songs there but they all have personal meaning to things I am going through right now, things I have shared and things I have not shared.

I feel lost and lonely right now. I dont feel like I can talk to anyone, mainly becuase when I try to talk to people I get shot down and the focus goes onto them, I never get my point across. I want to talk to people but I dont see the point anymore, why should I try when I will never be able to get my words out?